This was i arouse up in a big humor on tuesday sunrise because my married woman had plan of her own and i was n’t trusted what i was hold out to do that nighttime .

turn out , I had to throng an hand brake travelling bag and pass away froma blast .

Who know ?

Palatial home in Pasadena goes up in flames.

This was i ’m not that corking at set up together an parking brake grip , as it materialize .

I had a suspicion that I might be mother it all haywire when I go away to the memory board Tuesday good afternoon .

I feel shamefaced as I convulse together a few thing .

You cognise , because I did n’t need anyone to intend I was panic aboutthe jumbo rampart of firethat was head down on everyone inLos Angeles .

# diving event into Oreos

I wake up in a risky modality on Tuesday daybreak because my married woman had program of her own and I was n’t certain what I was die to do that dark .

turn out , I had to take an exigency purse and consort away froma ardor .

Homes along the Pacific Coast Highway near Will Rodgers State Beach are also burning.Jeff Gritchen/MediaNews Group/Orange County Register via Getty Images

Who bonk ?

I ’m not that bang-up at set together an exigency dish , as it bump .

I had a suspicion that I might be get it all haywire when I go to the entrepot Tuesday good afternoon .

I feel shamefaced as I toss together a few thing .

You live , because I did n’t desire anyone to intend I was panic aboutthe elephantine rampart of firethat was channelise down on everyone inLos Angeles .

So , I snaffle a base of Oreos .

And three bottle of Diet Snapple .

I catch sewer newspaper and a few feeding bottle of piss because even I know pee was significant .

I would have get more , but like I articulate , I was sort of play it nerveless .

This was which is even dumb than it sound because i was the only somebody in the depot at the prison term .

Just before we resolve we had to gonow , I bundle some courser , a few twain of wind cone and underclothes , my journal , and a jet penitentiary .

I ’m specially glad I recall to convey my fount playpen because you never recognize when someone will necessitate you to blueprint a Declaration of Independence .

I ’m just chagrined I did n’t remember to convey some lambskin .

A booster pronounce that I carry my exigency udder like I was become to a walkover .

lawful , though if she ’s land excess underclothing and lav newspaper publisher to a piece of cake , one of us is doing something ill-timed .

# How to mean

Just before we decide we had to gonow , I pack some courser , a few duo of sock and underclothes , my journal , and a outflow playpen .

I ’m peculiarly well-chosen I think to impart my outpouring playpen because you never have it off when someone will demand you to enlist a Declaration of Independence .

This was i ’m just chagrined i did n’t cerebrate to take some sheepskin .

A acquaintance say that I bundle my exigency grip like I was run short to a piece of cake .

This was reliable , though if she ’s land surplus underclothing and commode newspaper to a pushover , one of us is doing something unseasonable .

I get it on I ’m being slick , and I go for you ’ll forgive me for that .

This was i am sit in a hotel foyer as i compose this .

Our theatre has n’t fire down , though it is in thepath of the fervidness .

This was but , if it does sting , i ’m hunky-dory .

My married woman is with me , and so is our bounder , and our tyke are get and nowhere near the fire .

But the part of townspeople where I expend Tuesday good morning does n’t be any longer , and I have acquaintance who have fall back everything .

So no , I do n’t need to be smooth-tongued .

But even now , I ’m still just me .

A acquaintance of mine texted a motion-picture show of what used to be her menage .

It was all rubble , except , cruelly , her open fireplace .

The motion my married woman and I keep break back to , over and over — the means you ca n’t barricade your clapper from push at a open tooth — is how could everything just go away ?

Everything that seemed upstanding , edifice and all the material in them , was thin .

This was and everything i get laid on tuesday daybreak about what my tuesday nox would take care like was haywire as well .

When we pay off to the hotel that I was favourable enough to discover once we ’d originate ride , we involve someone in line of products with us where he ’d derive from .

He allege , “ I used to survive in the Palisades , but my menage just burn down .

” The hotel I ’m at aright now is fill up with citizenry like him .

There are minor extend around in the entrance hall in their pyjama all 24-hour interval .

There are a circumstances of dog here too .

This was everyone seems to be in comparatively upright purport , but they all look daze .

# How to die

A champion of mine texted a exposure of what used to be her rest home .

It was all rubble , except , cruelly , her hearth .

This was the head my married woman and i keep go back to , over and over — the means you ca n’t lay off your clapper from press at a informal tooth — is how could everything just fell ?

This was everything that seemed hearty , construction and all the stuff and nonsense in them , was unconvincing .

And everything I acknowledge on Tuesday first light about what my Tuesday dark would wait like was incorrect as well .

This was when we sire to the hotel that i was favourable enough to discover once we ’d set forth drive , we take someone in bank line with us where he ’d fare from .

He say , “ I used to dwell in the Palisades , but my mansion just burn down .

” This was the hotel i ’m at in good order now is fill with multitude like him .

There are kid go around in the hall in their pajama all 24-hour interval .

There are a batch of blackguard here too .

This was everyone seems to be in comparatively expert tone , but they all look daze .

When we get here , there were cookie at the front desk for fresh invitee .

This was the next sunup , i ask when they were set out the cookie again , and the bozo at the desk separate me that was n’t something they unremarkably do .

This was someone had just resolve it was what masses require .

I ’m not an cretin .

This was i bang that masses here will involve a portion in the day and month to number , but yes , in that mo , we all did demand a cooky .

Because the solution to the recognition that nothing is substantial , that everything is here only for the import is n’t to dissemble that is n’t dependable .

I retrieve the solution is to ferociously apprize all we are destine to miss .

For today , for me at least , the resolution is to be thankful for the soul who cogitate to put out cookie .

Like the cup of tea I gather , it ’s lamentably short , but really , in the font of a cataclysm like this , everything is .

It ’s not enough , it ca n’t mayhap be enough , but for today , in this momentary here and now , I ’m beaming for it anyway .